I HELD AN ANGEL

I HELD AN ANGEL · Not So Newbie Joined: 28 Oct 2002 Posts: 5

This message is about the loss of my baby girl. I prayed to God, that he would give me a baby girl. I even went as for as praying for how I wanted her to look, what kind of hair she should have, and of course that she be healthy. Well, three months ago I gave birth to that beautiful baby. But, because I wanted her and God wasn't ready for me to have her, she was stillborn. It hurts like nothing I've ever experienced to lose my baby. but it feels great to hae given birth to a God sent angel. I know that it is nobody but GOD that has given me the strength to except that it's not time for her. I have a wonderful son who, i figured must need all my attention right now. So my message is when you pray for something you want, make sure God wants it for you to or it may hurt you in the end. I know God doesn't hurt us. But sometimes he allows you you feel hurt to get his point across. But when this happens just keep on believing because, it's then that he's telling you he's your father and you don't need that right now. And trust me you can trust his no's better than any earthly father.

STARLYTE365 · Posted: Mon Feb 03, 2003 2:05 pm Post subject: I HELD AN ANGEL

I could not agree more,as the tears run down my cheek, it was just two weeks ago my daughter lost twin boys.My biggest worry was that she would resent God. However she did not she blamed herself,it was not her fault.I later found out that there was a complication and when the doctors found out they gave her three choices 1.Terminate,2.Do nothing and it would prbably naturally Terminate or 3.Try a procedure that had a 70% chance of working.If the procedure worked however they would probably be born with a physical or mental handicap or even both.This child of mine all of nineteen years old, chose the procedure, chose if need be to raise two handicap children.And God said not you,not now. As we all prayed for those babies,that was not his will.
She still had to go through labor and delivery as their tiny hearts stopped beating in utero. My baby, I WOULD'VE TRADED PLACES WITH HER IN A HEARTBEAT...
And those two little angels will always be in our hearts...
It is so true that he hears our prayers but we must realize that it is his will we must ask for and have faith in his plan for your life.
in light & love
starlyte