Poverty

Cazadora · Newbie Alert Joined: 24 Jul 2001 Posts: 1

If there is anyone out there please bless me. It seems like things always work out but I am so anxious that we are in trouble and that I am failing. We need to move away from this house with the violence and the drugs and I can't afford ot buy a house and it seems like no matter where we rent there is always someone in the basement who threatens us. I have asked the family for help in buying a house but I am so afraid that I don't deserve that help. I am so afriad that we will always be poor and living from moment to moment. I'm afraid I will never have a good job and that all the years I have spent caring for my family (by myself) and going to school will all amount to nothing. I am afriad that no one will ever love me. I am afraid that I will never be safe. I am afraid that I will always look like this. I don't know who to pray to but if there is anyone to hear me I sure hope you can understand that I really need some security and safety in my life and that having everything fall apart so often is more than I can bear. I just want to give up and it seems like no one would even notice or care. I don't feel like I matter to anyone. I jsut want a safe palce to live where nobody threatens me or yells at me or threatens my family or hurts anyone of us ever. I just want to know that we matter and that our safety is important. I can't imagine what it feels like to know that you are safe and that there is always food in the house and that the bills are paid always and the house won't be taken away from you and that your work is valued.

beth · Ferret Joined: 16 Dec 2000 Posts: 121

Dear Lord, please hear the cry of your child. Please intervene quickly and provide a way for this woman to get her family and herself to a safe, stable place to live, away from the drugs and violence. Please assure her that she is worthwhile, that things won't always be this way; Lord, please send her the love and support she needs here on earth, as well as extra assurance of your love for her. Lord, it is so hard to walk by faith and not by sight sometimes, and this is an extreme example. Please, grant Cazadora the faith and the peace to keep on while you work her through this awful time.

amen

Esperanza · Not So Newbie Joined: 20 Jul 2001 Posts: 6

Cazadora...The Hunter...
Mujer.....believe me I am coming from where you are...I feel you are weak in self esteem, you do not know the ability that you have as a woman..you do not realize that after hanging on so long what you really could do or what you really want to do..Cazadora..the Hunter...you need to let go of fear...Fear is a stange thing..I know because for many years it ruled my life too...I think the most important fact that I realized about fear was that it was an emotional feeling that I myself produced, when I started to worry I sent adrenoline to my brain..which caused fear..all of a sudden I was totally absorbed in fear..I am sure you have felt that, in a moment, it totally rules your life....and I didn't understand why..I was just afraid..when I understood that I myself was producing that fear..by starting to compulsivily worry, I could control it..Fear is a feeling that takes over our body and mind, but we still have our soul..our soul when strong and can make contact,will tell us that we need to overcome this..so what have you gained from this lecture....Cazadora...that your heart is weak and not listening to your inner sense..you need to listen to that inner light that is always there and does not let you succumb......that light that makes you hang on..it is telling you..move ahead...I feel in you Cazadora that you are a woman that knows this is not where you need to be..Just like me..we have this inner light that tells us that I am not meant to be here....

Lord, I pray tonight for Cazadora, I can relate to her pain..you know Lord, that God helps those who help themselves..Lord give her the strenght to go to the next level..don't let her jeprodize her children and her life, because of fear..take the fear out of her life and replace it with a light that only she alone realizes that it is a sign that she can take another road..the road to your fath and love..
Esperanza Fe & Caridad

admin · Posted: Sat Jul 28, 2001 1:04 am Post subject: Poverty

Esperanza and Beth,
Your words are beautiful and truly inspiring!

admin