i don't know how to let go

beth · Ferret Joined: 16 Dec 2000 Posts: 121

Boy, sometimes I feel like I do nothing but cry out on this board!
It seems that I may be in the middle of losing my one dream to ever have a real family of my own, and I am struggling with anger, despair, and utter hopelessness. I go back and forth from begging God to please not take this from me too, to being really angry with him and wishing I knew why...
I really want to ask for prayer that this is
not going to happen, that there will be love and children, but I don't think that's the plan... (He knows all the details).

So I guess I need to pray that GOd gives me the strength to let go of this last dream, and will at least take away the pain, and the feeling of failure that is always with me.

thanks.

muse · Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2001 4:15 pm Post subject: i don't know how to let go

Oh, Beth...

The one thing I believe more than anything is that God does not give us life only to deny us that which brings us joy. Some days, that belief is all that keeps me going, because all external events are to the contrary.

Recently, I quit my job to move across the country to be with a man. He called things off after I had announced to my friends, family, and co-workers that I had found the love of my life and didn't want to live without him.

After much introspection, prayer, and yelling at God that He had some explaining to do, I realized that if things had turned out the way that I had planned, I would have ended up in a relationship in which I was watching someone have the career that I wished I was having. (He's a television and movie writer).

Once this realization hit me, my eyes opened to all the other times in my life in which I lived vicariously through the people around me (most often boyfriends) because I was afraid of failing in the pursuit of my own dreams.

Once I realized this, and dared to move to Los Angeles to pursue my dream of being a screenwriter, many opportunities fell into place. And for the first time in my life, my personal happiness is not at all contingent on being in a relationship.

I have no knowledge of the events in your life which have brought you to this moment of sadness. Perhaps my situation does not at all apply. But, I can't believe that God would deny you the gift of a husband and children. Especially when you want to have a family more than anything.

However, is it possible that God has even more planned for you than you ever expected? Maybe the family is not in the cards for you right now because God wants you to be something more than just a mother and wife... and that whatever that something more is might happen before you have a family?

My prayer for you is that God gives you many gifts of joy, including a family... and that he will help you to understand why you are receiving such gifts on his timeline instead of yours.

Sending you my best, most loving energy.

Your pal,
Erin

Leslie · Newbie Alert Joined: 31 Jul 2001 Posts: 3

Beth,
You are certainly in my prayers today. I will ask God to provide for you the strength and courage to overcome your fears. I will pray that God continues to prepare you for a family that is strong in faith and love. Stay steadfast in your relationship with God.

Gabriella · Tadpole Joined: 11 Jul 2001 Posts: 19

Beth,
I feel as you are speaking exactly what my heart is feeling..
Father in heaven, please give Beth the desires of her heart..please Father please send her someone to love and love her back..give her the family she longs for and unite them to you and your son..Oh Father I beg of you in Jesus name send Beth what her heart longs for!Thank you Amen

admin · Posted: Wed Aug 01, 2001 10:32 pm Post subject: i don't know how to let go

Beth,
I'm praying for you. You sound very driven, at the same time ready for what path God has in store for you. That's a powerful combination!

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zola · Newbie Alert Joined: 31 Jul 2001 Posts: 3 Location: Kenya

We all feel what you are feeling at one point or other regarding different things.I share what you feel. I think the best thing is to stop asking all the questions, stop being angry and believe that God has a reason for all the happenings in your life and that things may not always work out the way you want. Just pray and know that God knows what is best. My prayers are with you.

carol · Sea Monkey Joined: 30 Jul 2001 Posts: 12

Dear Lord,

Beth is crying out to you for help with her life. Lord, you gave us life and we try daily to make the most of this gift You gave us. But sometimes there comes a time that we find it hard to bear the pain that just living day to day can cause. Sometimes we need a little encouragement to keep going.
Lord, please show Beth that You are with her and hear every word. PLEASE give her a sign that You WILL help her and heal this feeling she has in her heart for a family of her own.

Thank you, Amen.

pebbjm · Newbie Alert Joined: 22 Aug 2001 Posts: 3

Beth,
I will keep you in my prayers. I know too the feeling of wanting something so badly, especially a relationship that one feels so strongly about. Something you just "know" down deep in your bones that this is it and then asking, why isn't it working and why aren't I getting the answers I'm wanting. I know exactly because I'm in the same boat. All I can say is to pray w/out ceasing and have faith that you WILL receive what you ask. "When you pray to God, you must persevere in your prayers. Your perseverance reflects the importance of what your heart desires from God. It should never be assumed that God does not hear your prayer because He does. In fact, God has been known at times to provide something before the person even had the opportunity to ask for it. Also, God hears the request while it is being asked." [Is. 65:24]

limmy66 · Posted: Sat Aug 25, 2001 4:33 am Post subject: i don't know how to let go

Beth, I'm not so sure how u're exactly but I have things that I can't let go as well. I sincerely pray for GOD to grant u whatever possible wish u're asking for.